3 months have passed. And I still didn’t have a chance to talk to his father about her willing.
5 months have passed. It seemed the leader was busy during the ceremony. Or maybe I should say Azura’s Adult Ceremony, while my research was almost finished. I predicted it would take a year or two. Well, thank to Azura. I should get to go by myself right now. Azura will be very busy. I must do something for her. Today is 2 weeks before the ceremony.
A day before the ceremony.
“ngh…ngh..” someone pulls my cloth.
“Oh, Azura! Hay! So how’s everything going?”
Great she said.
She pulls my cloth again, now with my hand.
“What happen?”
My father calls you. Is that what she said? Well maybe it’s a chance.
“Where’s your father?”
She pulls me into leader hut.
“Welcome, visitor!” Marvee, Azura’s father, welcome me.
“Hello, leader”
“No, I tell you, call me Marvee. You are just like a teacher for her. Thank you! “
“It’s no big deal.”
“Ahh… but you will leave. Who teach her if you leave? Hmmmm..”
“Mmm Marvee I’m sorry but what about the teacher before me?”
“Hah, that guy!! He tell me he want to marry my Azura so I kill her.
Hahaha….. Of course Azura don’t know anything about it. “
I guess I have to forget my feeling to her. I’m afraid he gonna kill me.
“Ahh… Teacher I tell you. I old man, Azura my girl I will not let anything let her down.
She always beside me. I must protect her. I can’t let her go.”
“Oh, I see.”
“Well, teacher, you sit beside me tomorrow at the ceremony. You and your team.”
“It’s an honour! Thank you Marvee.”
“Ahhh we will meet again tomorrow. I must rest now.”
I go out. Azura come to me. So how? She ask. “Nothing to worry about”, I smile, “you need rest. Go take a rest now!” She’s so excited. I hope everything is going to be right tomorrow.

* * *

The sun set is so beautiful. God, what I’m supposed to do? Should I take her to London? Tomorrow is my chance. Maybe if he’s happy, he will let her study, only for a short period. Beside she can go home if she like to. And my feeling to her? Oh, God. Guess, I have to forget about it. I must.
“Hello, Zack!”
“Hi, my man!!!! So everything’s ok?? Coz you promise you will call me
if you have a problem. Tell me you don’t have one!”
“Well, um.. actually I do”
“Oh, man!!!… What happen? Tell me..tell me..”
“Well, it’s just….I just need to get back soon. So can you pick me up about
3 days later?”
“Why?? I think I suppose to come 4 months later, you told me that, remember?”
“Yeah I know.. I change my mind. Just come here, ok!”
“Ok. I think I’ll come about 3 or 4 in the dawn.”
“Ok, I’ll see you Zack!”
Salty ocean breeze, I’m gonna miss it, the sun, the wind, everything. It’s peaceful here. But my insecurity won’t let me peace.

* * *

I looked up the star it’s nothing there could make me smile
And the moon is dark; it’s time to let you go
The scratches in my heart I know it’s real but feel so fake
I could never..

S.I.D-Broken heart

I must prepare for any worst condition that might happen tomorrow.